Tuesday, December 9, 2008


I am having a guilty conscience. I am looking for an escape form this miserable mode. In fact, the most painful part of hurting somebody you love is when you realized how shallow you are after she opens your eyes to the flip side of the matter. She then forgives you and it seems that she forgets everything at all. The sweet moment starts again, and the nice words you hear from her do not diminish your guilt but intensify instead. Why did I do such thing? Why did I act that way? And you suddenly look her in the eyes and she says, “I’m sorry for the cold treatment.” Now I really believe that the most effective way to injure a person who has hurt you is to forgive him (and treat him nicely). Forgiveness is crucial but it is of our own personal way on how we align forgiveness: To be divine or to be human.
I’m sorry for making you feel that way. I miss you.